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Transfer to a small bowl; cover and chill until ready to use, up to 3 days.. Make the pimentón cheese.Cover and chill.. Make the burgers.

Arrange jamón serrano in a single layer on a microwavable plate lined with paper towels.Cover with a paper towel.Microwave on HIGH until slightly crisp, 1 to 2 minutes.

(Ham will crisp as it cools.).Preheat grill to high (450°F to 500°F).

Let hamburger patties stand at room temperature while grill is preheating.

Shape pimentón cheese into 4 (3-inch) disks (about 1/4 cup each).1/4 cup plus 1 tablespoon granulated sugar.

1 1/2 sticks cold unsalted butter, cubed.About 1/2 cup apricot jam.

7 ounces almond paste.3/4 cup confectioners’ sugar.